my understanding of my personality type, Enneagram Type 5....
starting off with the good:
observant, intelligent, love knowledge, perceptive, able to analyze and figure things out quickly, smart, focused, become very skilled on whatever I focus on....I'm able to figure people out quickly. I'm able to focus and listen and learn things in classroom setting or trainings for a job.....tend to focus intensely......I can be silly....I am deep...doesn't mean I'm not capable of chit-chat...it's just exhausting to do on a daily basis as well as boring....I don't find the need to talk to co-workers daily....don't see a need to talk to others that are acquaintances on a daily basis either...I wish guys that I dated understood that about me instead of thinking I'm going to cheat just cos I'm cute.....my appearance and his experiences with women that look sort of like me or are similar to me in whatever it is that is similar does not mean that I'm going to cheat like they did....that is not me...I don't cheat...it's not in my code...plus I don't care to find another person to talk to that much to waste my time and energy when I've already poured it into the guy I'm with....wish guys understood that and would relax and chill instead of becoming insecure and controlling and worried......annoying....
downside: weird, anxious around groups of people, get overwhelmed with bosses that are bullies and become hyper when stressed out, start getting sick with asthma and upper respiratory when stressed, become isolative and withdrawn when overwhelmed and stressed out, become depressed and have a hard time thinking logically for a strategy to overcome my situation.....if I stop talking it's not cos I'm angry and if I'm angry it's not at the person that I'm dating it's more than likely cos of my situation and job.....so if I'm not texting daily or calling...it's cos I'm probably depressed and overwhelmed and have to save my energy for work.....wish people understood that and didn't take it personal like I'm avoiding them or being an asshole....or whatever is in their head.....I am capable of accommodating and texting back...it's just if I'm overwhelmed it's not going to be as often especially if the relationship isn't serious....so the reputation of being "stingy" of my time or whatever...it's not true....I'm a total giver...but I do become isolative when overwhelmed....and I only stay like that for a day....I try to be cheerful the next day and not let it get to me.....it just depends on the situation...if I have a bully boss....it's hard to be happy when I have a shitty job and worried about bills.....hopefully that makes sense....
also downside.....when overwhelmed and isolative it's really hard to get me to come out of my cave and socialize or do stuff, especially if I don't know a person and don't trust them....if I know them or trust them...it's a bit easier to get me to come out and do stuff and to talk.....
I'm not the type to be clingy.....
I was taught to be respectful and not to impose. So, I'm not the type to initiate a conversation at times, text, call or initiate a date, etc. -Sometimes I'll take the initiative to comment or message someone cos it's easier since it's the internet.....I very rarely text someone that is an acquaintance....most of the peeps that I associate with are on social media so really no point in texting or talking to them. I do have a friend that sends me DM's almost daily that is an ESTP......he is a former co-worker and he'll send me DM's with pics of random stuff and short messages....he's ok....he used to send me DM's constantly, but when I was working at my most recent job....it took over and I rarely had time to respond or DM back during the day and only sent him DM's at night....he used to send me DM's even on holidays.....but now if it's been days that I don't hear from him....I'm ok with it...doesn't really bother me since we are just friends.....probably more like acquaintances.
guys seem to like my personality more than women.....
I tend to troll guys that send me DM's about how "beautiful" or "cute" my pictures are.....if they talk about my tits I block them immediately......I hate getting dick pics.....why on earth do guys think that works on a woman??? men are visual....women are more emotional....not going to deny that women aren't superficial on appearance, too....but I've had hot guys wanting to date me and if they were shallow or put me down...I didn't put up with that and ghosted them pretty quickly.
Being an Enneagram Type 5 isn't cool.....we are smart people...but also at times looked at as being weird......an example is Nicholas Cage....I can tell he's one from his approach to acting....he over-spends on his money....but I think it's cos he doesn't think things through when stressed and he probably had a really bad accountant and manager that either took advantage of him or didn't tell him that he was over-spending and broke. The character, Edward Scissorhands is also another example of an Enneagram type 5.
so, if I'm in a relationship with a guy that doesn't understand me.....and needs to be texted daily or call me daily.....I don't mind talking to him and texting him.....and I don't mind seeing him daily and spending a lot of time together.....it's just in the initial dating....I don't tend to initiate......
and now some memes that I think represents me as an Enneagram type 5